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Breath. It’s a comma. She’s been talking for an hour and a half, maybe she hasn’t breathed. And, she’s teaching a class because she’s deflecting what’s happening to her, her way, which is, I’m not sick, I’m not in a hospital, I’m in my classroom. I will now just teach this disease that’s happening to me. I will teach it. I will teach it away. I will intellectualize it away. And I will keep doing that as a way of not facing what’s happening. So she, um, intellectualizes everything. She makes everybody a student of hers. And she just keeps fighting because she’s scared. She’s scared. And she does have one line. “I’m scared.” She steps into a little bit of grace. Death is … not fear anymore.